Date: March 24, 2025
In December 2024, I put a couple of notes on Facebook stating that I would be leaving at the end of the year. People asked me not to leave, said they'd want to stay in touch, exchanged emails with me.
Well, here we are at the end of March and no one has bothered to email me. I figured that someone would have reached out with "Hey, how are you?" but no. No one has bothered. I haven't emailed them because I feel if someone truly cares about me, they would make the effort. So yeah, I hold grudges.
When Jessica, my cousin, was pregnant with her first kid, she removed my sister and I from her account (unfriended us) and said it was because she didn't have time for Facebook. When I heard that, it bothered me that she'd keep her friends and not family but I didn't let it bother me - at first. When I learned she kept Lorne and Michael on her Facebook (Uncle Rob's boys) I was very hurt by it. I have made zero effort to keep up with her. I think I've sent her a Christmas or birthday card twice; but other than that - nothing. I didn't even call her when mom passed. I figured Aunt Kathy would tell her.
See, I want to be loved. I want to be cared for. If you cannot make the effort to talk to me; then I don't see the point in wasting my time to reach out to you. I want people to WANT to talk to me. You know, the ones that go "wow, I really miss you. I'd love to be in touch" and then write me to say "Hey, I was thinking of you. How are things?"
My thumb has pretty much healed now, though it's still very sensitive on top where I had cut the piece off. The nail has pretty much grown back now, which is nice. It doesn't look so ... freaky... now. I hope it stops being overly sensitive some time. It's kind of annoying. lol
My right foot has been sore lately at the top of my foot. I don't know why. It makes walking painful and sometimes my foot shoots pain through me. I have no idea what I did or why it hurts. Nope, I won't go to a doctor for it. I hate doctors and I can't be bothered with them. I'll just let it go and hope it improves some time.
I have started building up my savings again. I got my refund for the 2024 tax season in and the vast majority ($2000) went into savings. So far, I haven't used any of it - Oh.. but I will tomorrow when I go get my hair cut. I'll probably have to use some in a week or two when I take the car to Ricky Ratchets for the oil change. Last time, Rick said that I should have the air filter done the next time I come in. So this oil change is going to cost more. I need to remember to bring the coupons I have from Rick for it; so that'll take a bit off the cost. Oh well. I need to keep the car up-to-date on service because I can't afford a new one.
I can't believe 3 months of the year are gone. I'm anxiously awaiting warmer weather. We had a couple weeks were the weather was warm. One day even reached 20C! But last night it snowed and today is supposed to see a rain/snow mix. Bleh. Come on hot weather!
I'm hoping Ken will decide to come visit me soon. I'm missing him. I can't afford to go to the USA right now, and with Trump's Bullshit (wanting to annex Canada and make it American, slapping tariffs on Canadian goods, forcing Canadians to be fingerprinted and to register if going to be in the USA for more than 30 days, etc) I don't want to go to the USA. It makes far more sense for Ken to come here. It's cheaper (no hotel for him) and his money is better (Canadian dollar is tanking - $1CDN equals $0.70 USD!) Bleh!
